Thursday, October 14, 2010

My VBA2C story and thoughts

Well folks, you won't see stuff like "went to the loo and had a show". Here's the gist of it:
Drug-free VBAC, although we had to do a vacuum because right when I was pushing they did the Doppler and the baby's heartbeat had dropped quite a bit. Because of the vacuum, I was transferred to the bed and put in stirrups, but these actually helped to alleviate some of the cramping and numbness in my legs. I birthed lying flat on my back (not semi-reclining!).
No episiotomy, but I did have a first degree tear and a few stitches.
The whole thing lasted for 6 1/2 hrs, from 3.30am to 10am, much shorter than expected. After all, I laboured for 14hrs with Reuvel, before being told that it wasn't gonna happen and they shot me with an epidural and sent me to the OT.
Reflections:
Some of you know just how much I wanted a VBAC when I was having #2. When it didn't happen, and my postnatal discussion with Paul concluded on the note that chances for a future VBAC would be very slim, I told myself then, if I can't have a VBAC, I WON'T have another baby. Then along comes the unplanned #3, whom God used to show me that I really can't give up hope. Anything is possible with Him.
Regrets:
My perfect birth would be birthing standing or kneeling upright, no tears (and no stitches!), and DH catching the baby. But my legs were numb and cramped from lying on my side once we got to the hospital, so that was out, plus I was tired out. But hey! I got my VBAC! And delayed cord clamping! And DH cut the cord! And I could nurse the baby immediately after Paul was done stitching! All these had been in my birth plan for #2. And I laughed and cried simultaneously for 3 minutes straight when they put the baby on my chest and I realised it was all over.
My deepest gratitude to:
Jehovah God - who heard all our prayers.
Ginny Phang - who taught me, 6 years ago, how to breathe and vocalise when the contractions got intense. This was how we got there drug-free.
Pat Chong - who lent me her last minute buddha's leg.
Amy Chin-Atkins - who encouraged me in every single email
to listen to my body and have faith in myself. And sent me the "research evidence" that I needed to put my fears at rest and go ahead with a TOLAC.
Gigy Chong - who was the very first person to tell me, straight to my face and without a doubt, that I would be able to do it. You know how much it meant to me.
Paul Tseng of TLC clinic - who at first discouraged me to go for a VBA2C but in the end, consented to my birth plan. You rock!
DH - who held my hands when it became unbearable and cried tears of joy with me when the baby was finally put on my chest. And who supported and trusted me in my decisions every step of the way.
And then the fourth trimester began d:)


3 comments:

  1. Hi, I just chanced upon your blog while searching for info on vba2cs. I'll be seeing Dr. Tseng this week for my #3 too. My #1 was an emergency c-section & #2 a failed vbac. I'm worried that I'm putting myself & baby in unnecessary risk, but I'm reading your story with great hope & praying I'll have the same luck!

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  2. Hi, good luck! Stay positive!

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  3. Hello, I just read this. I'm going for VBAC2 with Dr Paul too. Am praying for the same good luck as well! :)

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